Escape from Alcatraz...

I"m officially "out" of my little cell, i.e. our downstairs guest room. It was interesting to sleep there and to know what it's like to be a guest in this house. Not too bad, but a little chilly. From now on, we'll keep an electric blanket down there. It seems like some form of karma to be made to sleep in one's own guest room. Just glad we don't make people sleep on a futon anymore! (I can hear Bruce saying right now, "what's wrong with a futon?" each to his own, I guess).

I joked with my dad that I was tunneling out of the closet with a spoon and was going to make my escape into the sewer system. In reality, it was nice to have a rest and a chance to do nothing but sleep, read and watch movies. Actually, the morning I was officially out I climbed back into my little cell to take a nap, it was so cozy.

Still feeling tired from the radiation, but getting better every day. It reminds me of climbing up a hill while riding a bicycle. You just keep pedaling and pushing up up up, knowing that eventually you'll get to that plateau where it's a bit easier and you can breathe freely again. I'm still tired, so things seem a little harder than they really are. Bruce is taking good care of me though and I'm officially on the same nap schedule as Amelia ;) Your phone calls and e-mails helped to cheer me up when I started to feel sorry for myself, so thanks for them. I have learned to accept graciously when people send their love to me. In a way, that is such a hard thing to do. I think to myself that it is more than I could ever deserve. When I say this to Bruce, he tells me that I will do the same for him one day - hopefully when we're both old and gray or old and an unnatural shade of auburn on my part! Maybe that's the lesson in all of this, that we are here to care for one another and love one another. That there is no scarcity of love and that when you give it, it comes back to you with interest.

We'll know on Friday if I'm in the clear for awhile and won't have to deal with anymore of this for another year or not. Please keep your fingers crossed for me!

love always,
Darcy